Been awhile

It's been awhile since i've posted here. Not too much has changed really. Still same old me. Classes are going well, except stat. It seems i suck at anything remotely related to math. But i'm doing well in my other classes. And after one more history class i will be done with my minor. I'm actually sorry i'm almost finished it. I'll have no more excuse to take history classes after this. Sucks. I have no money to double major or..well, that's just a pipe dream. In any case, i charge on. Nothing else to do, right?I've finally seen my niece and she's the most adorable thing ever. Sarai Doris, just over 3 months old now and the center of everyone's world. When you're around her, you do what she wants, lol. But all babies command your lives. She's just better at it than most. I'll see her again next week, and i'm sure her mosther will have no problem giving her up to me for a few days. A few hours to be her own person is just what Meralisa( my sister in law) needs.

That's it for now. I'm sure you, whoever you are, have better things to do. Or at least something else you could be doing. Get to it.

Writing.

I have been writing poetry lately. It's surprising, i get so little inspiration these days, but an online friend sent one to me, so i wrote one back. This has been going on for about two weeks now and i am still able to write. I think i've written about ten poems in the last two weeks, and it's wonderful to write. I don't plan on sending any of these into contests like i did with earlier ones though. I will post here though. Some are pretty emo though, i get so moody in the summertime. A left over from high school, i'm sure. Here's one for you.

Regretfully i leave you
A world of possibility
dying on my tongue
cowardice stalks my heart
and despair
is my only friend.

Bad, yes? But this was the first in our little game. I will post the rest little by little, so as not to causee your eyes to bleed. If anyone actually reads this. Good night, or good morning to you.

Cat Murderers

Alright, so i'm talking to a friend, feeling sorry for myself as i tend to do when hanging out with married/engaged friends, and she convinces me to put up a personal add. I'm not stupid, suicidal, or in the market for a stalker, so i go a slightly safe route and put the add in myspace personal. I don't have to put a phone number or anything, and i only give pics to people i know fairly well. You actually have a bigger chance of meeting me in person than getting a pic actually. If all else fails, i can erase the add and i control who i become friends with. So far i've gotten hit on by 60 year old guys, 19 year old boys (seeing as i'm turning 20, that isn't really a problem except for the fact that even when i was 7 i thought guys my own age were childish) and everything in between. Few have actually tried to have a conversation, the popular line being 'Do you have a pic/why don't you post a pic?' I have since stopped feeling sorry for myself and remembered that the reason i'm still single is not just because of clingy ex's, but because dating blows. Big time. I had forgotten how many cheesy lines and dirty old men there are. And i'm not counting the 35-40 guys as dirty old men. I'm talking 50-65, old enough to be my father dirty old men. I'm going to delete that add and crawl back into my nice, single, unoccupied bed and hide from the world, because as lonely as it can be sometimes, it looks better than the alternative. Yeah, i know that makes me a coward, but while fortune(and presumably love) favors the bold, curious killed the cat.

A new lease on life...

and a fortune. that's what my fortune cookie said. Would that the cookie spoke the truth and a fortune would come my way. A new lease on life wouldn't go amiss either. As it is, the only thing that's new is the resetting of my internal clock. It was pointed out to me, in rather annoying terms, that being nocturnal isn't good for my health. In order to remedy my sleeping habits, i stayed awake for a full 24 hours and am now about to sleep. 1 is the latest i stay awake now, and i feel tired just getting to that time. The whole thing is useless anyhow, when the fall term begins again, ill be back to 20 and 18 hour days due to work and studying. But for now, a more 'normal' pattern is the one i must follow. I did this mainly to avoid a trip to the doctor, my parents were making noises about having me see a doctor for my insomnia. I'm not an insomniac, i simply take at least an hour to fall asleep. Even though i go to sleep earlier now, i still only sleep for about 6 hours. I cannot sleep longer.

In other news, i am waiting for the news of a friend. She was due to give birth this week, and the lack of communication suggests that she has. My cell is dead, and if she is in the hospital, she cannot IM. i will have to find out about my almost-niece when she is better. Sleep calls and i answer gladly. May all your dreams be pleasant.