And nothing has changed. I am still jobless, almost friendless, and loveless. It is spring break now and i have not only gotten no work done, i have not even done anything that may be considered 'fun' in this particular day and age. I think i have hit pathetic. Or maybe i touched that level ages ago and am just now realizing it. In any case, my life is pretty much stagnant. A little back story to catch anyone reading this up, since my last post i have, applied to be an RA and summarily got turned down, applied for an internship but missed the application date, got a job but quit when it turned out to be one of those knife selling things, went dateless and friendless for Valentine's Day, volunteered at the Florida Conference of Historians, and wrote several depressing poems when, after the conference i found myself, as always, alone. Got all that? Good!
I know some of you, if anyone reads this are going, 'were you actually trying to hook up with someone at a history conference?' The answer to that is no. I did however spend all of one day and much of the next in the company of people that knew and were interested in many of the same things as me. I ate with them, i listened to their lectures and talked about life. And when it was over and they all left for vacation, or to spend time with boyfriends or on vacation, i went back to an empty dorm, with no one, not even a lizard to talk to. Talk about emo inducing atmospheres. I was not in a mood that called for silence and solitary dwellings. after all that companionship of like minded individuals i wanted more. That absence made me realize that no matter how irritating my friends get i'll be with them as much as they can stand me. Except that time of the month. No one should be subjected to me then, honestly.
Yet i know that this resolution of mine will, like many resolutions, fall by the wayside when i get irritated or tired. I will count on you to remind me of what i have promised, deal?
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